#SE: A Clock that ran out of batteries
#SE...short for short essay. Why not?
There’s something weirdly cathodic about a clock running out of its butteries.
I just looked at my clock, and it seems like the clock has stopped for just about an hour.
I got that clock 2years ago when I moved into this house. It was the first time I hang something on a wall that was my own living space.
It’s a shitty cheap clock, but I remember where and when I got it because it was my top priority to get a clock installed in my house, a very responsible time management behavior on my behalf.
I guess the only realization here is that batteries lasts 2years and more? Which was pretty surprising to me. But also another thought was that when I got that clock, and put the batteries in, I was so happy and excited about the adult life I was about to embark on. A new challenge. A new adventure. A new taste in life that I have longed for so long for myself.
I was seeing someone who excited me, I was taking on a new job, and I finally made my dreams come true which was I have my own apartment I can live in with my own rules.
Just now, when I realized the batteries were out, a whole 2years of my life flashed back at me like it was telling me, hey, you were really on a new journey back then, but wait till 2years later because you will find yourself in a very different state. You will be lost more than ever in the solitude you have created on your own. Lost with men, in friendships, in your own body and with life.
I have to take down my clock that I held two years ago, and put in new batteries to run another two year life marathon. The thought of it is draining to say the least. The lifestyle I live as a fast pacing millennial who is still learning how to set boundaries for myself when I run out of breath, gets the best of me sometimes. As I am putting in the batteries, I can’t help but to imagine that those batteries has seen me cry and suffer this past two years. But also they have seen me appreciate being alone and being vulnerable through human relationships. To embark on new exciting young adult life things, like taking on a new high paying job or being with a man who is fun and all is great, but I learned more than ever that happiness and sadness are always temporary feelings. Both feelings will never last forever. Nothing is forever in this big life we need to keep living in.
To me, it’s just a clock that ran out of batteries, but I almost tried to hug the 2 year old batteries that run out of breath that was never meant to be forever lasting and say thank you, and that you did a good job.
WANTED/募集
Hello Hello! I’m trying to look for brilliant and cool people who wants to contribute to this #SE series! English or Japanese, Whichever is fine. If anything, I love the idea of brining in Japanese to the platform and amplifying Japanese voices as well. Obviously, my platform is not monetized at the moment, but just for any creative portfolio purposes or you love to write but don’t have the means, I’ll love to have your writings on here! There is no criteria at all in who is applicable. Just anyone who has an opinion or thought provoking essay that is aligned with this platform.(The piece above is about 500 letters so not more than that is necessary but that is up to you too) Giving credit to where credit is due obviously, so if you are comfortable, I’ll love to write a brief introduction of you as well along with your socials or any other projects you have going on. Please contact me via Instagram(@megsgumis) or Twitter DMs(@dolcemegs) if interested. Very keen in hearing what you have to say!
こんにんちは！この#SEシリーズ（ショートエッセイシリーズ）に貢献をしてくれる、クールで素敵な人たちを募集しています。英語・日本語問わずです。むしろ、日本語も大歓迎で、今の日本にいる素敵な人たちの声を伝播していくためのプラットフォームにもしたいなあ、とも思ってます。まだこのプラットフォームはマネタイズされているわけではないので、そこは了承してもらいつつ自分のクリエイティブポートフォリオを作るとか、とにかく書くことは好きだが気軽に書くプラットフォームを自分で用意してない、、などあればここを使って欲しいと思ってます。（お金にはならないけど、よくインスタのストーリーとかで面白いことを言ってる人はいるからそんな人たちがどん使ってもらえればな〜と思ってる。）どんな方でもウェルカム。意見的な物申す的なものでもいいし、このプラットフォームの方向性に合ったような何かみんなに何かの考えを促すきっかけを作るエッセイでもいいです。もちろんクレジットは書いた人へ。問題ないようだったら簡単にご自身のイントロも記載した上で掲載したいです。（匿名でもOK）そして、他のプロジェクトやソーシャルのプラグももちろんOK。興味があればInstagram(@megsgumis)やTwitter(@dolcemegs)のDMまで是非お尋ねください〜！